Baby don't worry, you'll be my only

Feel like blogging again

2010-09-17T02:05:00.002+08:00

Damn heng i nvr delete this blog... Suddenly feel like blogging again... O's are coming! So stressed and dunno how to get rid of the stress so i guess blogging is the best way? Somehow this would be the best time for me to have a gf haha... Got someone to lean on lor.

Cant sleep. Body too used to the late timings. Not suprised if I fall sick some time soon. Just hope its not during O's period! Gosh! Speaking bout it, O's are coming. Hope all people taking O's are prepared. Wish i could get myself into 100% study mood oso... Now is only like half?

Tmrw last day of prelim! Going back for a stupid 1hr paper leh. Uber waste of time. But after that hopefully can meet up for a study group. Suddenly have the urge to study. But before that, got tuition at 9 in the morning!!! :( sads manx! Then maybe go gym!^^. Decided to buff up a bit. And its all for my future of playing? haha.

My life feels uber upside-down now lor... its not how i want it to be!!!!

Passed up and screwed 2009

2009-12-29T22:46:00.002+08:00

Gonna be the last few posts of 2009:(. Sad la, as everyday passes, the day of the worlds obliteration and annhilation gets closer. Be prepared to die lah... I dun wanna die a virgin!D:... haha! But seriously, i dunno why but i some what keep thinking about the 2012 crap. Lol. Guess the best is to be prepared to die and then when the day comes juz hope for the best. FUYO!

Anyway, this is some sorta reflection through the past year.

Relationships
Manage to hold up my promise of keeping less than three girlfriends to Cheryl. Haven't played in like super long and i think i kinda lost my 'mojo'! Was super serious with my girlfriends this year but some how it didn't work out. Only had 2 this year and sad to say both of them have changed alot. Even when i wanted to try and start playing again, the girls i met were either attached or had some one they already liked. Fucking shingzy la! Then the best is the one that i liked, yes, i LIKED, is migrating. I'm juz glad that i didn't get too close to her before she told me that. Sure, it did hurt a hell lot to hear it, but atleast it was still early. Right now I currently like the oddest person one could ever like. Ever liked someone you respected? We may be friends but she is also my 'superior' sia... damn weird... Her actions are giving me the feeling that she might like me too. I've hinted to her that i like her and her response is always like hinting me back. I'm afraid that if i try, our friendship would be affected. Anyway, juz have to grow my balls bigger cos i'm planning to ask her out before countdown and at exactly 0000hrs on the 1st of jan i wanna try my luck, confess my feelings for her and ask her for her heart :D. Wish it would happen haha. But doubt so lol.

Academics and Education
As you guys know, i retained this year. Next year i have to drop to 4N. So mum is sending me to private to continue and do my O's. Have done loads of soul searching and have told myself every single day to pull up my socks and study hard the coming year. 17 next year liao, won't be 17 again or 17 forever so have to make this year count. May be more havoc la, thats all i can say. Don't even know wad kinda bad habbits i might pick up from private, but at the end of the day, i'll still make sure i study:D.

Anyway, tmrw morning going for dental check-up. Hope the dentist dun say anything bout my teeth haha:D. After that going down to a Mum's friend's saloon to cut hair... thinking of under-cut ley... but maybe juz trim will do la... As long as when long and nice can liao. Oh! And as long as she likes it can liao :D

Dogs are a man's best friend

2009-12-28T01:02:00.002+08:00

Met the girls and Donovan for slakingz session today again... Found out that Pedington needs someone to look after her tmrw and I volunteered! So excited bout it! So i guess i'm toning till day break and then i'll pick her up. See if Siying wants Charlotte and Peding to meet up anot. haha!

Anyway, this post goes out to my bestest Ang Moh friend, Jennifer Ann Hamer! Yes my dear, this you are my best Ang Moh friend, and i know after you see this post you are so gonna call me Chi-nah again. Anyway, tks for being there, through all those sleepless night that i've had. And thanks for letting me be the one to be there for you too. We've shared loads of fun going out, watching movies, disturbing each other bout our racial differences and not to mention picking on Venus. You da bomb girl! :D

The time for forgiving

2009-12-26T00:36:00.002+08:00

Its Christmas everybody! I know my blogs have been coming in on the wrong day cos i always post it after 12. But school is starting soon and i guess by then my blogging timing would be before 12 and on the same day...

Anyway, Christmas. Its not all about giving gifts and sharing. Its more of the forgiving. One good example is my dad haha. Read the previous few blogs and you will know how i feel about him and the way he treats me. But since yesterday, he changed and i guess i've changed my feelings about him too :D.

So, left Amanda's place early yesterday for midnight service at church. Had to sit through more than an hour. Time went by so fast the minute the service ended. Everyone went out and was wishing each other a merry christmas and had fun chatting with everyone. Headed over to Ben's place for the after-party but didn't tell mom and dad cos they were asleep. Some how, got away with it, and came back by 5 with credits to Sandra for sending me :D.

Woke up at 12 today, slacked and went over to Alex's place for Christmas lunch. Had fun playing Band Hero with them and it was nice to play the drums infront of different people for a change. Played many games including some cashcard monopoly that they bought from Taiwan. Left at 6 30 to take Ye-ye for dinner at his friends new stall. Came back and went to Donovan's place for party. Saw this uber cute girl and wanted to ask for her number. But as usual, too shy la! So in the end dun have. Went down to salck with the usual juz that today Yingying nvr come. Sad lor... So talk bout r/s stuff then now i'm home.

So now juz doing the usual, blogging though kinda lazy, watching OnePiece and juz slackingz... So bloody shingz la. Hopefully it wun be too loud like Boomz if not wake mom and dad up. Tmrw heading over to Ne-ne Ee-ee's place for bbq at night... so, get to swim! Haha. Crap la. Got some group of guys downstairs my hows making so much noise! So damn Shingzing Boomz la!

Where'd you go? I miss you so... Seems like its been forever that you've been gone

2009-12-24T00:23:00.002+08:00

Mummy suddenly turned damn nice to me today. Quite suprising. As usual, the Asshole didn't let me out at all today even though had OBS gathering... Talked to mum today and she told me to be home by 5. Damn early, but atleast i got to go out. Today Camp 1 outing rox... Played frisby from the time we reached, which was at around 1 30? Supposed to meet up at 12 but some overslept, some last minute decided to come and some had some school programe earlier. Played pool while waiting.

So... Played frisby, and most people were kinda inexperienced in it. So what else to do? Train them lor. Played then by the time they all decided to cycle, it was already 3 30. Rented blades with Rachel. We went all the way to NSC then headed back. By the time we reached lagoon, it was almost 5. So borrowed 10 from Mercus Lau who heng heng juz nice was working at IC near lagoon and cab back home. Sry to my fellow friends who had to carry my blades all the way back... I owe you guys big time!

Reach home and chillaxed till 8 then was invited over to Alex's place to help them with their rock band. Lol. Played then went down to slack with Evania, YingYing, Donovan. Was having so much fun when Ying started to go emo. Everyone kept quiet after that. Atleast before i left i saw Donovan make her smile again :D.

I don't know if i'm scared of your reaction, the truth or i'm not ready. They are convincing me to get you but i don't know. Today, seeing you sad really broke my heart. And when i thought i heard a sulk from you, my heart just crumbled into pieces. I don't know what i can do to make you go back to the bubbly and jumpy self that you were. You were the one i can always count on to make me smile or laugh no matter how bad my day was. And now seeing you sad, i feel so useless, not knowing what to do. I tried my best to comfort you with an sms but you didn't reply. I can only hope that you will feel better soon and know that i will always be here for you when you need me, juz like you have been there for me.

Born and Raised.

2009-12-23T00:10:00.002+08:00

Don't know why, but have been getting alot of requests to update blog so... after almost 20 days, update lor!

Cant help feeling and asking myself, why the fuck i was even born to this family?! It seems the only thing i can treasure from my family is everyone but my parents. To all my frenz out there, i know you all say that im super lucky being an only child. Trust me, it is like hell! Imagine this, in every family, the parents will dish out 100% of hell on their kids. The more siblings you have, the less hell you all get. From what i see amongst my cousins, some of them younger than me are getting even more freedom than me! Screw my fucking life la. I know it sounds stupid, but these are the times i wish i had a girlfriend. Some one i can always count on to brighten my day, some one to hold and to hold me back to comfort me, some one i can talk to late into the night and would let me pour out every single one of my troubles. Life sucks. Almost scolded FUCK infront of Mum juz now. I have always wished i never had a Dad, but with the way he is treating me now juz makes me wish i could kill him with my own hands. He fucking grounded me cos i havent got my pay. Anyway, here is my sincerest apology to you mei, that i cant acompany you to send nigel off, i feel damn shingzy right now la. Mom said that she will try talking to the Shingzer if i can go OBS outing tmrw. He better let, if not he will witness my worst rebellion yet, that mother fucking chi bai.

Anyway, was glad ye-ye called the Shingzer 2 nights back. Was playing mahjong, so wasn't really concentrated on the conversation with him. He mistook it for my chinese being super lousy and he called Shingzer. Shingzer then got an ear full from grandpa haha! Was so nice to hear that it happened. But of cos, the parents always takes it out on their kids. But was too happy that i couldn't be bothered by what he say. Btw shingzer, if you think that i'm a useless son, look back in the mirror and see that you are a useless dad too! You think your strict way of raising me has me on the right track?! Too bad! It's my life and i don't take instructions! It's up to me if i want to cooperate or not. If you want me to, then treat me nicely. I can still remember the younger days when i used to get beaten by you and i can tell you this... Mommy is the only one that has my respect! So Shingz off!

Blanks

2009-12-06T23:44:00.000+08:00

Tired to the max. Have been sick the past few days. Lack of water has caused the medicine to still remain in my bloodstream instead of being washed off. Feeling drowsy as hell since morning. Cant even watch tv while sitting straight.

I need a girl to look after me :(

Tonights gonna be the...

2009-11-29T23:28:00.006+08:00

I know i havent been updating for awhile. Lappy has been over at Ashton's place cos they wanted to use it for dota.

Anyway! First up! A post that has been delayed for far to long. My most sincerest apology in posting this so late, but HAPPY BELATED B'day SiYing! It commemorates you 15th b'day, and our 6 months of being together as a family. Although we may be seperated next year, always remember that i will be a phone call/ a block/ always right here for you:D. Your brother will always love you (and of cos Fion too), and dote on you (and of cos Fion too).
Yesterday was super tiring! Woke up like round 9? Called belle immediately to wake her up. Was shocked to find her awake so early lol. Anyway, prepared and overall was still late so decided to juz meet belle over at kallang. Anyway, husky prepaid low then oso no phone, so was afraid that if i went there, i wun be able to contact Husky. In the end, we had to wait for Husky though he reached Bedok earlier, COS HE WAS EATING!!! He brought along a friend named Nicole and together we all 4 went down to Wild Wild Wet! Played the usual stuff, can't believe i actually succeeded in asking belle to be my date for the day! Lol! Super fun. On the way back, bought cotton candy, which was super lousy quality cos it melted in less than a min, and it kinda 'dripped' so was eating at all sorts of weird angles.

Finally reached Pasir Ris interchange and saw some kinda food fair. Guess what!? They had Takoyaki at like 2 bucks compared to the ones more ex at plaza sing! At that, plus some japanese pizza before boarding the train. Headed straight down to Dbg and slacked there before going back to the 7-11 at home to meet Ash and Don. Bought some snacks for the night and went back to play com as usual. Headed home round 2? And knocked out while waiting for belle to reply sms.

Today, was supposed to go jamming but as Grandpa was treating family lunch, had no choice but to go. Ate at the wonderful restaurant over at Katong area! Super cheap! Plus got to drink anchor beer! Though its not really to my taste, juz drink only lor haha. Came back and chiong-ed mahjong all the way. Was losing like crap, then came a chance to win back my loses. Suddenly mom called and distracted me, made a wrong move and lost my chances! So in the end lost $10 :(. Screwed lor. The only thing that brightened up my day was the incident of Uncle John singing I Gotta Feeling by the BEPs. He kept singing Tonights Gonna Be The instead of the actual lyrics and he stops there cos he forgot the rest! Lol. Despite efforts of trying to correct him thrice, by Char and Cheri, it still continued so its like uber -_-. So anyway, I am hungry! Hungry, Hugry! Very, Very! Hungry, Very! Very, Hungry! Chikalaka pi-a pi-a! Chukalaka pi-a pi-a Chiak! Time to cook noodles! And 1 more thing, has anything like this happened to you before?

5M's 5M

2009-11-26T12:30:00.003+08:00

A BIG HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ALL 5M!
It has been 5 months since our end of conf 4 camp and the day the Five Musketeers of conf 4 were renamed 5M. Through our five months together, many things have happened. We have been through good times, like that night at Seoul Garden where we all had free drinks and ate for 3 hours till our stomachs almost exploded, and bad times. We have gone through many hardships and internal strifes, but thats how bonds and friendships get stronger right? Sad la, but our next month will be on christmas period, lets juz try to meet up k?

Yesterday, celebrated with 4/5M at sentosa. The final 5m member went overseas so he was not present. We were all supposed to meet at vivo by 12 but, everyone was late and only daryl and I were arriving on time. Suddenly while on ECP approaching AYE, i forgot i left the ball at home. Called and informed josh and he asked me go back to take. Found out he did not leave house yet so he met me below my block, went back up to get the ball and returned back to vivo. Ended up last there -_-. As soon as we arrived everyone had a good laugh when daryl pronounced siloso beach as sea-so-low haha. It was an in the moment kinda thing. Played with water 1st, then skin peeled like crazy by the wrist and knees. But the good part was that we saw many ang moh babes there! OMG! And there was this 2 chinese ladies in their young 20's with their mother and their swimming wear was like hmm.... The swimwear in David Guetta's Sexy Chick and they look fucking hot! The 4 guys, including me, were going crazy when they walked pass! lol. All pics of the outing can be found on my fb account.

Anyway, returned back into vivo round 8 30? Everyone was hungry so we walked over to food republic for dinner. Spent all my money yesterday so im here at home today saving. Anyway, proceeded down to cube to meet husky and to let Isabelle see who i am too. Seen her thrice and yet she still dunno who i am -_-'. And i think its quite obvious which is me lor... i think she got stm haha. No offence belle :D. Anyway, as usual, she looked stunning and i got stunned when she is around lol. Dunno y leh, see her only my heart will skip a beat lol. But she is really adorable la... haha, very cute

Through Good and Bad

2009-11-23T23:33:00.003+08:00

Alrighty! Juz had a quarrel with dad about stuff. 1st was about the private school thingy. I sat for their test, and even skipped broadrick's re-test, and now my parents are telling me that i won't be going private. Freaking pissed la! Was looking forward to the new and condusive environment. They say that private school no dicipline and that broadrick is better. Plz la! Broadrick only make sure you attend classes lor! They don't care bout progress and results. To them, if you make it, you promote, if you don't then you retain or drop. Then after that dad and i quarreled again. Mum asked me if i was working tmrw and said that as my working time was not confirmed yet, i was on the any time any day scheme though i told them that it would be on mon tues and thurs. Then dad extra and asked me to do work on mon tues and thurs. He added that if it does not get sorted out he will go down and talk. Like fuck off from it la! I working not you right? I settle liao then you kp so much for what? Its them not me wad right?! Then you wanna go down talk to them and raise your bloody voice like you always do? Can! But before you do let me jump off from 10th floor 1st. I know you love me and wanna protect me. I really love you too. But sometimes the way you do things juz makes me lose face and cause me more harm than good. I'm your one and only 16 going 17 son now. So all i need you to do is to place all your trust in me. I'm a big boy now and i know how to look after myself.

Today, being the 23rd of November, is Daddy's Birthday! So Happy Birthday Dad. Hopefully I was the 1st to sms and tell you happy birthday at 12 last night. Though we fight quarrel very often, we have our good times just as often. Every night, the fights and bad memories are erased and all that is left behind is all the good times we spend together and fond memories. Love YOU! (Btw, this photo was taken with dad in 2007 at the Bangkok airport on the way to USA)

Sui Sen <3!!!

2009-11-22T23:20:00.002+08:00

1st time blogging since I came back from OBS! To all people who have blogs and viewed/read my blog, especially to all my fellow Camp 1 Alpha mates, plz leave links to your blog!

Sec1:Ursa Major-----Sec2:Magelen----Sec3:Sui Sen

Anyway, 1st day of OBS was like hell! Suffered with a runny-nose all day. My greatest apologies to all my fellow watch mates if i pissed you guys off with the snorting and sneezing haha. Used up 5 packets of tissue that was donated by various friends from different watches. And that was not including the napkins i got from the canteen haha. That was how bad the runny-nose was. Had a different instructor again as usual. Sec 1 was Sam/Samantha, sec 3 was Daya, and this year was Pei Lee! Although all you guys have different styles and expectations of your watches, you were the ones who always made the difference in my camp experience. You made the camp like a sweet dream, or a beautiful nightmare~! haha. Anyway, felt so outcasted that day, especially during dinner when Pei Lee said that no one was to share utensils or food with me cos of my flu :(. Was sent straight to the medic after dinner. He gave me lemsip and told me to take one before sleep and 1 more when i wake up if i still have the flu bug. And if i took it, i wouldn't be able to take part in the activities and if i continues till afternoon, they will send me back home straight.

2nd day, luckily, i woke up without any sniffing or what so ever. Pei Lee allowed me to take part in the rock climbing! We were issued points according to the height of our climb and extra bonus if we reached the top. And i big congrats to Sui Sen watch for exceding our target by almost 18k points! Had freshly cooked food over at the canteen for lunch and damn it tasted good! After that spent the whole day packing and preparing for our land and sea expeditions for the next day. After that hiked over to Camp 2. Had a night meeting about our expeditions, and was chosen by my watch together with Darren to represent Sui Sen and be the sea expedition leader. Tks guys for the amazing opportunity! Had so much fun leading and helping you guys out. Hope you had fun too. After that the leaders had a meeting on the time planning and schedule, debriefed the others from other watches and set tents there for the night.

3rd day. Had a fresh start and got into the kayak by 7. Was posted as the sweeper, meaning that I had to stay right at the back and take care of the slower ones. I kept changing partners, taking those who really cant paddle. In other words, my passenger can sit there and enjoy the ride while i paddle xp... Was super exhausted by the end. As we reached the end, it started pouring! While the rest waited juz off-shore, the leaders all carried on ahead to dismount 1st. Then we helped the rest off their kayak and brought it up a steep slope to the camp site lol. Bombed my ass off after that and dropped dead like a log into lala land :D.

4th day, land expedition. But before that, to have a rinse in the quarry! It was filled with fresh water and we washed all of the salt water off our bodies. The challenge before the 'bath' was for all 4 watches involved in the expedition to build a raft and raft out to the middle of the quarry and then if we make it, the intructors would give us 1 less check point to go to, meaning a quicker journey and less time carrying the heavy back pack! And congrats Sui Sen on being the only watch to complete the challenge! haha. But to the other watches, we were all in it together, and every watch has its strength. Eg. Barker was usually puntual for gatherings, Washington always were the fastest to pitch tents and Tock Seng always kept the others happy and the environment lively! As for Sui Sen, we were like the worker ants of our company, always more to the practical and physical side. And it was how we covered for each others weaknesses that made our camp a once in a lifetime experience were we all bonded so well! Everyone in the end seperated for different check points for the expedition yet we all bumped into each other on the way back lol. Everone had a well deserved shower that night. And like how brotherly and sisterly we are, we all shared food with one another, helped each other pitch tents and got our sound sleep together.

Final day, nothing much went on, we did the trust dive and it was nice to see that everyone trusted each other :D. By the end, everyone was so close that it was almost impossible to say good-bye. It felt like ripping a major vein from your heart. Camp 1 Alpha! YOU GUYS WILL ALWAYS BE LOVED!

Outward Bound!

2009-11-15T23:56:00.001+08:00

Crap! Camp starts tmrw! Hope got other schools over there. Even better if got other school girls there. If not wont be fun. Sian sia, tmrw must wake up at 5 45. Cant put eye-liner at camp so tmrw wake up early, use the pencil, draw a lil bit then wash with water. Should have some left over to last 1 day haha. Anyway, got to sleep soon. And mei, i'll dedicate a post to you when i get back k? To you, me and Fion's 10 month aniversary as family k?

Where'd you go? I miss you so...

2009-11-12T22:12:00.002+08:00

So... today. Fetched Hidayat and Fauzi from school with Red. Sent them home and had lunch with them again. Feeling so pai seh, evertime eat lunch there lol. Then as we were about to leave for his god-mother's place, Fauzi said that he wanted to go. Redhza didnt approve and poor Fauzi sat there crying as he saw us go off. Hopefully Hidayat kept him company and happy while we were gone ;D.

Took bus 70 followed by 80 to get there. At first it felt kinda awkward. But thank you so much auntie! You made the awkward feeling go away by making me feel so at home :D. Then saw one of Red's cousins, and omg he was freaking buff! Super hawt! If it takes a guy to call a guy hawt means that guy is super uber hot! Im so gonna work for that kinda body during my army period :D. And all the children of his god-mother are all HAWT!! I mean seriously. They one by one came out of their rooms at different timings and it juz took my breath away haha. But sad la, they are all older leh :(.

Came home by taking 27 followed by 10. Met Donovan downstairs and found out he juz pierced his tongue today. I so wanna do that too! But mom dun allow lol... I guess thats it for today? Hopefully tmrw more interesting things will happen teehee :D.

Slacking is a kid's best friend

2009-11-11T00:28:00.000+08:00

So anyway... 2 days nvr update liao. And the past few days has been spent with Andy. I officially declare him my brother from another mother! lols. Anyway. Monday was spent watching a movie as well as the test. Suprisingly the test was easy to the core and i did well. I guess City College is gonna accept me. I opted for a two year course and they even offered me a one year based on the results of the test inclusive of an interview.

Went down to bukit merah where the school was. Arrived late and sat for the test. Was shocked when Remus was sitting beside me. He quitted ITE to join private and take O levels lol. After that slacked around for 2 hours while he went for job interview, and went back for the interview at the school. After that headed back into town and met Andy. A big shout out thanks to SiYing for passing me the MJ This Is It tickets. It was super amazing. Highly recommended for dancers. It was such a beautiful movie that i almost cried teehee. Slacked again, sent him to park lane and went home.

Today, meaning 1 hour ago, woke up at round 12 30. Ran loads of errands today. Showered, left home and headed to school. Went down to settle some stuff bout school with a number of teachers. BUT ALL OF THEM WERENT IN! They were either overseas or out for invigilation for the O levels. So went off the Leisure Park to waste all the remaining coins i have kept for 6 months inside my shoe bag haha. Super smelly sia the coins! After that went down to Forum, dropped off a form for the manager at Macs, today's was one i nvr met before, and headed off to toa payoh. Met Andy and slack and played snooker for the first time for like 2 hours? Slacked even more after snooker then caught a bus hope. Arrived and went over to Alex's place. Played street fighter like hell. Hopefully can improve and take on people at arcades :D

When it knocks you down, just get back up

2009-11-09T01:15:00.000+08:00

Finally! Today is the day im gonna sit for the exams for the private school. Gotta be there and start the test by 10 and it will last till 12. Then have to wait till 2 30 then interview start. The school is at bukit merah area.... anyone wanna pei me for 2 and a half hours? Please pray for me guys, to which ever god or deity you pray to. I really wanna go private. Honestly, i've had it with the stupid Phua Huat Chuan.

It was cool at first, knowing the grandma and him were in the same class together and knew each other well. But ever since he came to the school, he has been desperately trying to improve the grade of the school at the expense of dropping out or retaining tens of students a year! Like totally wtf?! So please. I officially hate Broadrick and wanna get into private so pray for me.

Anyway, tmrw after interview, heading down to plaza sing to meet up with andy. And watching Micheal Jackson's This Is It movie with him. Thanks mei for the awesome tickets!

Here are some things to set things right. Dear people. I have stopped smoking. And if i put info here on this blog it means that i trust you to keep it a secret to yourself and not tell others. And i have stopped smoking everyone! As much as i'd hate doing that cos it pisses my mom off, i have stopped. Looks like i have to find a new way to win the 'pissing' war haha. And lastly, i hate Braodrick sec, but dear teachers, i still love all of you! :D

High school never ends

2009-11-08T00:39:00.000+08:00

High school really seems like nvr ending for me. Teacher said that i can promote up to 4N only. Yet both my parents are not happy. So what they do? Send me go private school. Ok la not bad lor. The brighter side would be that i can wake up later cos schooling hours are later. And that they dont control me on what i wear and my hair length too. Found this out after i came back from my recent chalet since tuesday night.

Really considering going emo like billy and cymon already. Everytime parents kp so much. Study last year kana retain they kp. This year's exam lagi more difficult yet i still manage to promote then they still kp. And atleast i pass la. They cb kp say that i nvr get into sec 4E means i fail the entire sec 3. Cb if i in normal i get A-star for all subjects except chinese i will fucking wipe the results slip on my ass and shove it into your mother fucking faces! Then another thing. Mom found out i smoke. Then when i told her i stop, she dun believe. She even tried to get me to pao toh on the people i smoke with. Fat hope bitch! I will never do things that betray people unless i hate that person to the core. Then she dun believe i stop. When i said that i wun do it again she kp say that wad i confirm will continue smoking juz like all the other times i said i will stop doing smth but i didnt. CCB KP SO MUCH FOR WAD FUCK?! If you know i will continue then let me continue la. Why cant you be like other parents that allow their kids to smoke?! Atleast i dun ask you all to buy for me packs! Atleast i dun do it infront of my family! Atleast i make sure that wad ever happens, no matter how fucking bad i become! Even if you all fucking hell disown me and i am no longer part of the family, I will never allow my dearest cousins to learn bad! Especially from me! So fucking hell juz let me be!

Fuck this la. The more i say out about my parents the angrier i become. CCB control me like im their dog that nvr listens. CB PEOPLE HERE GOING 17 ALREADY SO JUZ LET ME BE COS I KNOW HOW TO TAKE CARE OF MY SELF! Juz let me smoke and die early la. Get all your insurance money you all talk so much about.

Condoms in Mcdonalds?!

2009-11-02T02:19:00.001+08:00

Ok... so here is the highlight of the day...

Today at work, i was the only afternoon shift lobby crew so all the clearing and cleaning was had to be done by me. So i was trying my best to avoid sweeping or mopping the floor by acting busy. Suay suay kana caught by Eve then she ask me to sweep the floor. The entire day and night, saw all kinds of people. Gays, lesbians, male ang moh, female ang moh, hot ang moh, trannies and black dudes who were the real hip hop deal, as in they really had the bling, the cool hairstyle and baggy pants with baggy shirts.

Then suddenly this ang moh came in alone. He 100% confirm gurantee plus chop looking for prostitutes one lor! And i got proof!!! Ok... so when i finally reach the counter doing sweeping duty. This ang moh guy came in alone. When he took out his wallet to pay for the food, a golden pack dropped from his pocket. I was the only one who saw so i kept quiet. But he pretended like it wasnt his and acted like nth happened. Then later i quicky go sweep it up noticing that the packet looked like a condom packet. Actually wanted to prank Zarif by saying i had a condom when it wasnt. When i finish sweeping, i took it to go prank him. After looking carefully, IT ACTUALLY WAS A CONDOM! Super shocked lol. And thats how i got my first condom lol!

Times that never comes

2009-11-01T01:30:00.000+08:00

'Secret additional info about my day in this post. Can find? lol, so obvious

Screw it sia. Today alot of time was spent waiting. Woke up earlier than i wanted. After that waited for Alex to wake up. Smsed Theresa Hartono while waiting lol. Suddenly dad came up and asked me to follow him to run an errand and visit Ye Ye. So damn wtf lor. Bo pian must go wad right?! They kp so much about results then if i say no they sure kp even more. After that went down to Forum but everyone at counter was so busy so didnt wanna disturb them.

Went down to PP and met Nigel and SiYing. Sat there and waited like some retard over there for like 20 mins? lol. Was planning to eat cheap cos only had 10. In the end went to Mos and Bro help me top up the rest (which wasn't much la... a few cents nia). Went over to his place then he started drifting. Not really what i expected cos not enough space, but i will commend that he has the heart to burn his tires doing those stuff. Eh! Tires not cheap ok?! haha

After that left and took a bus down to Katong cos had family dinner there. It was Kong Kong and Ma Ma's aniversary lol. So cool! Wedding aniversary on Halloween lol. So...
HAPPY ANIVERSARY MY DEAR GRANDPARENTS!!!!!
Caught 135 and took it all the way down to the bus stop opposite TKGS. Mum said that they will leave home and 6 so i left Nigel's place at 5 45. In the end after reaching there, had to wait for 45 mins cos they all werent ready. Like WTF! By the time they came my jeans was all wet from the shin down, front and back! Had dinner and asked mom if i can go for the upcoming class outing. Guess her answer? NO!! WTF AGAIN!! Cmon la, it the last time we will spend time as a class lor! Came home and went night cycling.

Didnt realise how time flies. It wasnt long ago when Char met Hao Bin. It wasnt long ago when i found out Johno was with Shu Xin. It wasnt long ago wen Alex was with Charlene. And today i found out Cheri has a bf too?! So much for the crititism that i received when i was her age. Evertime kana disturbed and told off cos i had a girl. Now she have no one says anything. I guess times are changing and adult's mindsets are too. But my mom forever wants me to be single. Bring girl home for meals nowadays oso cannot. Im being treated like some 8 year old. Thats y we always fight... as in cos she nvr trusts or treat me like a 16 year old, not cos of girls lol. Die la, must slp liao. Tmrw got work. Then when wake up sure kana scolding again. Wish me luck? :D

Lets get drunk and forget what we did

2009-10-26T23:13:00.000+08:00

Results day is forever dissapointing. I got an overall 40% for exams again. Its like ever since Mr Phua came into office our school papers all got so difficult. Dun dare to tell Alex. I hate it when he gloats over me, knn so what if he is better in academics compared to me?! I'm sure im better than him in other this oso wad, just that i dun say or gloat all over it. But more rather i'm afraid to tell mom. What if i retain again? Fuck sia. I dun even know how to face my family. I DUN WANNA GO NS NEXT YEAR! I DUN WANNA BE THE EMBARRASMENT OF THE FAMILY! I'm under a hell load of pressure now. Nothing is like what it seems on the outside. And i really pity Fion Mei too. She might have to retain too. Seeing her cry juz breaks my heart. Drank with her today at Plaza Sing there. She got super drunk within 3 cups. She started biting me and Husky like crazy (ouch!). Got two bite marks now on my shoulder lol...

But always try to look on the brighter side of life. No matter what happens, i juz wanna have my two sisters along side with me all the way. But if somehow one of you can go off for smth better, you will have my well wishes. No matter what happens, meeting you 2 have made me loved retaining. You two were like my jewels the entire year. And now seeing that the year is coming to an end, i cant help but think back at all the good times we had this year and cry, or tear. You two are the sweetest and most lovable sisters ever! :(

MIA-ed (4 Days)

2009-10-23T21:50:00.001+08:00

Right... MIA-ed for 4 days... so here's a catch up since tuesday.

20th Oct (Tuesday)
After paper, left school and went to meet Nigel with SiYing mei below my block. After meeting, slacked there for no more than 5 mins then we went over to Mac for breakfast. Saw Natalya there with a few of her friends and ate McGriddles for the 1st time! While i slowly ate, Mei came up with another concoction as usual. Went back to the car, smoked one stick while discussing where to go and left after deciding that Marina would be our KaiKai place. Nigel dropped me back home and after sending Mei and going back to his home to change, he swung by and picked me up. When we reached there, we smoked another stick... at the car park! Its illegal by the way lol. Practically walked around shops the whole day with 1 or 2 pics taken and headed over to suki sushi for dinner. The food wasnt as good as soul garden but it was way cheaper and the evironment with the experience was the bomb! You even get to make your own Ice-Cream!!! Stuffed myself so much that had stiches the entire night. Went out to smoke 1 more stick then realised that i had to shit! Nigel had the same feeling. We rushed to the toilet then to our horror, and i really mean horror, with our shit about to leak out, only got one toilet bowl! The other 1 is squating. So i gave way to Nigel and held my shit like crazy lol. Relieved liao then came home and slept straight away lol. So here are the pics taken that day :D... More info on that day in Siying's blog.

21 Oct (Wednesday)
Smsed Q and met her over at CDC and slacked the whole day there

22 Oct (Thursday)
Slacked at home

23 Oct (Today)
Woke up. Had a proposal for Janice for a Y2Y camp. So all Y2Y members out there reading this blog, if you are interested in helping me, plz contact me on my phone if you have my number or through my blog ^^. Went down to Orchird Forum with Zarif and Q. Jalan Jalan and then went back at 5. Ask for an interview for a job there and got it! Headed down to Bugis and bought the black shoes for work. Guess what! I have to start tmrw! Cool! But its gonna be tiring... Anyway Zarif took my pack, and limited me to 5 sticks a day. But with work starting, i dun even think i have the time for that many... So... thats a good way to quit smoking right? haha

P.S Jie... i know... im cutting down le... i promise by the end of the year i will be smoke-free

Break a leg!

2009-10-19T22:48:00.000+08:00

Toilet Break!

Toys R Us... Toys R Them!

Walk walk walk walk and wait. Thats all that we did today. By right should be study study study. And when i said we i mean Kenneth me and Zi Xing. Was supposed to go library today lor. But last minute Redhza cant go. So while Ken and i waited for ZX at old airport, Julien went home. By the time we met up, we were on our own. Plus we all had dress code today la. Then some more go home oso wasted. So we decided to go orchird since Fitri was working there and i was waiting for her to knock off work. Took 16 till Wheelock there, and went into the closest Shopping mall; ION! But sad la, everything there all to expensive lol. So went down to Far East. But when we got there all we did was bought a drink at KFC and zao-ed, super -_-... Went to smoke, then suddenly there was a loud farting sound. Kenneth and i suddenly needed to shit like crazy. I gek sai until goosebumps come out sia! In the end we went to Mount Elisabeth hospital's toilet lol. Came out and went to meet Fion at Plaza Sing. Met Zhi Yin for the 1st time today, and as Fion always said, she really was cute. There were 2 other girls with her oso, both oso cute, but somehow like no kick leh. Played L4D and kept getting shot at by Fion. Team killer! And some how, Fion was the only one that died lol. Went to eat diner with her then sent her up the bus and walked home.

P.S I didnt get Fitri's sms after 1 whole day of waiting for her at Orchird. Extremely depressing and dissapointed as to how a 'bestie' could have played me out till like dat.

Oh. And yesterday was the opening of Mum's gym; Contours Express! CE Huat Ah! If yall ever interested plz go down and check it out, its located at haig road. I myself have worked for my mum at the gym and worked out at the gym before the opening day and i must say, it i damn nice. But its for ladies only, so sorry guys :D

Thanks darling!

2009-10-18T02:48:00.000+08:00

Omg! Two days in a row of giving flyers is exhausting. Sneakily went block to block instead of giving out on the streets today. Hopefully dun tio gan by mom. And today i became the no.1 laughing stock when i gave a flyer to this ang moh lady.

Me: Excuse me miss? (pushes flyer to her)

Ang moh: Oh! Thank you darling!

And it was damn loud! Some more got shelter above so it like echoed all over. Kenneth started spreading rumours that i had an OLD ang moh wife! Like wtf?! So after finish juz sat at Haig Rd for like an hour? Productively spending the time slacking lol. Went down to leisure and had dinner there. But bo pian, we had to tah pao out to eat outside cos inside no space. Ken and i sat there eating by the corner and smoke oso. We looked like some homeless begging kids! My face would never fail to go all red when some one looked at us lol. After that met mom and dad for dinner buffet again. Made up for lunch by stuffing my mouth with all kinds of food but damn it was good!

If you guys have the time, plz go down and support this restaurant. They just started not much people know bout the place but the soup is damn nice! Its located beside the katong SPC, opposite TKGS. Thanks!

Presenting... The pics that were taken today!

What a cute couple... lol

A camwhoring nerdy me? haha... the hair makes it worse!

Excuse me, Miss?

2009-10-17T02:29:00.000+08:00

Omg... It is so fucking difficult to be smth you are not! Its just so hard to put myself into the shoes of being your bestie after all we have been through and with all the feelings i have for you!

Anyway, slept late last night so kinda slept in. Siying woke me up after her paper. She came straight to my house to change while i showered. Then suddenly when i came out, 'Mei! Why you wear FBT go give flyer at MRT?!'. Somehow she just gave me a diao kind of face lol. Luckily she had a pair of pants at Nigel's place so he came down to give it to her. After he dropped us of at Mum's gym, went in, had a short briefing and left for the MRT. Giving out flyers is weird, people! Well, actually is ok la, but its just the starting part. Learnt and gained alot of experience from Redhza and Jia Sheng too. Oso had the chance of seeing a few hot girls. Don't worry Fitri, you will always be my no.1 apple of my eye :D. Oh, and Redhza got a girls number too lol, funny story.

Girl: excuse me you got money for bus fair?

Red: (digs out for coins and gave her 1.20)... So... i give you money you not going to give me anything ah?

And bloody hell he got her number just like that lor!!! So funny, yet unfair! Anyway, went back to the gym to slack then went to Kallang in the evening for free labour lor. After was paid 7 per hour but night dun have. Legs aching like hell, Mouth sore like hell from smiling whole day. I wan my BESTIE to be with me here right now and accompany me. Her smile can easily make all the pain go away:(... I still love you no matter what... haha

Anyway tmrw oso must give out, but time made earlier to catch the lunch time crowd, from 11 to 1... Tmrw Redhza and Siying wun be coming and Zi Xing will take over Jia Sheng's place. As for Me, Alex and Kenneth, we die die sure on 1. Alex got nth to do at home, I need the money to save for her, and kenneth need the money for himself lol. Father go Indo then nvr give Ken money lol. So night peeps.

Heartbroken

2009-10-16T00:32:00.001+08:00

Fitri msn-ed me suddenly, saying that she was heartbroken. I was already heartbroken when she said that it was over between us today, and when i heard that, i somehow felt her pain to. My heart seemed to just fall apart. The only thing holding it together was the hope that it would be because of me. And there i was waiting for the chance to say smth like 'don't worry, i love you and i'm yours'. It took only a few seconds before the heart totally dropped. She said that a guy she liked asked her bestfriend for stead. Days ago, when there was a moment of silence between us, i asked her if there was another guy. Her answer was a straight forward and bold no. Now that this comes up, I just cant help but recall how i've been used before. I still love her with all my heart. But im getting confused, afraid that i'll get played again. Questions kept poping out of my mind like, 'Will i get played again?', 'Will i ever or do i even stand a chance with her?' and 'Am i even worthy of her even if she gives me the chance?'. I have so much fears. I want her so badly, and no one has made me this happy in a long time. But yet i'm afraid, afraid that i will never get the chance to show her how much she means to me and that i might not be able to keep her happy. I tried to give her advice on her issue. It was 3 times more heartbreaking advicing her, trying to give her good advice as a friend and not take that moment and use it as an advantage. I only want the best for her and want her to be happy !!!:(

Now that i've poured my heart out, time for the daily reviews. Physics is good but FnN sure fail. Anyway, Mom's gym is opening soon!! Cant wait for it to open. And i'm Contours Express' official DJ... Any songs you guys hear from there will be done by me! I'm in charge of uploading the latest pop, RnB and Hip-Hop songs for their excercise haha! Then had dinner with Ashton and his family and Lagoon. Had Gong-Gong, Carrot Cake, some crazily expensive $10 rojak and Wanton Mee which sucked like hell... The soup tasted like hot water lol... Sigh... I juz wish you could see my heart. That my love for you is pure and true. Sianz... Tmrw have to work and give out flyers. Double-edged sword! Have to wake up early! But i have made a resolve to save up atleast $10 everytime i work for Fitri. I have to take her out and pay for her once in a while too ok?!

Anyways... Good luck to all sec 4's sitting for their O's and wishing all those who take their exam good results haha... take care!

Happy Birthday Zaza Izura!!!

2009-10-14T22:50:00.000+08:00

Yep... Happy B'day, one year older already. Must be more mature and blah blah blah k? haha

Sigh... Ever felt heartache over spending money? lol. Suay sia. Yesterday spent $20 on cab fare after meeting baby... Heart pain la.... But there was smth she did that just melted my heart and made it all worth it haha. Anyway im think im super dead. Didnt really study yesterday when i was with her. So today the exam scripts were practically blank? Plus FnN coursework has been due for submission long time ago and havent even started it yet. Just hope i dont bump into Ms Ong tmrw!!!

Went over to the gym after cutting hair today. Doesnt look any different, just that it looks much neater now. Atleast not like the mop i used to have on my head :P... Hopefully Baby will like it. But im oso prepared to cut again if she doesnt lol!!... Anyway take care!!!

Ice Breaker

2009-10-12T23:39:00.001+08:00

Finally... Baby is talking to me again... It appears that the reason she didnt sms or talk the past few days is cos she was afraid of me asking her for stead... But now that everything is settled, its back to normal. Thanks GOD!!! My prayers were answered after praying damn hard every night :D. Cant wait to see her tmrw and watch her rebond her hair!!! Baby i missed you... Though we may be friends now, i hope that we can be more than that and i'll wait till you are ready. And feel free to call me down to woodlands anytime if you need me kay? Love you baby, and you have my all...

A big shout out to everyone who has been tagging... Thanks for the support yall!!!

Sad Sad Situation

2009-10-11T00:46:00.000+08:00

Sigh... I didnt get a single sms from you today... I dont even know if i have the chance to be with you anymore:(... Im just praying and hoping that tmrw will be alright and that you will sms. And we need to meet up! I badly miss you, and i also need my physics book back... My physics paper is coming up soon baby. Please reply me asap

Craps up today. Went all the way down to toa payoh today. Went there to Mr tan's place to study. In the end oso nvr study. Need motivation to study leh!!! Plus was supposed to meet Andy there at like 12? In the end over sleep then he only came at 1... Ton la, ton some more, make me wait like and idiot sia. Chilled there till like 5? Came home and slacked. Wasn't until around 9+ when i went down to the playground and met Alex, Claudia, and Michelle... Claudia's bro was there too, but dunno his name lol. Played with his wave board and i freaking hell improved alot! I can finally move and balance on it... It's only a matter of time before i master it haha... Thats all for today folks. Super tired! Oh and to the anonymous person, im not afraid of girls, you judge people early... Maybe some day people might just judge you and call you a douche bag? That would be perfect for you

Not everything goes as planed

2009-10-09T22:53:00.000+08:00

Hey yall... welcome to my 1st blog again since june... Sigh... days past so fast... but it seems to slow down without you... Well, today was ok... SS paper wasnt as hard as i expected... but as usual it was damn rushing and i wrote the answers till my hand almost cramped up lol... Mei and Nigel came over after the paper... 1st time Nigel met my parents lol... damn cool.. haha. Didnt sms me the almost the whole day eh? I'm getting worried... Plz tell me that smth went wrong between us so i know how to make things right. I can't take the silence between us. I really love you and want you bad but as the days pass it seems like you are drifting furthur away from me... I may not be able to give you your materialistic desires if there are any, i may not be able to be there for you always(after all we live on opposite sides of the island), i may not be able to give you full happiness, but i promise that i will do everything in my power and might to make you as happy as i can. Everything i am, and everything i have, have already been surrendered to you... please give me the chance

Twitterbug

2009-10-09T12:16:00.001+08:00

Testing!