Feel like blogging again

Damn heng i nvr delete this blog... Suddenly feel like blogging again... O's are coming! So stressed and dunno how to get rid of the stress so i guess blogging is the best way? Somehow this would be the best time for me to have a gf haha... Got someone to lean on lor.

Cant sleep. Body too used to the late timings. Not suprised if I fall sick some time soon. Just hope its not during O's period! Gosh! Speaking bout it, O's are coming. Hope all people taking O's are prepared. Wish i could get myself into 100% study mood oso... Now is only like half?

Tmrw last day of prelim! Going back for a stupid 1hr paper leh. Uber waste of time. But after that hopefully can meet up for a study group. Suddenly have the urge to study. But before that, got tuition at 9 in the morning!!! :( sads manx! Then maybe go gym!^^. Decided to buff up a bit. And its all for my future of playing? haha.

My life feels uber upside-down now lor... its not how i want it to be!!!!

Passed up and screwed 2009

Gonna be the last few posts of 2009:(. Sad la, as everyday passes, the day of the worlds obliteration and annhilation gets closer. Be prepared to die lah... I dun wanna die a virgin!D:... haha! But seriously, i dunno why but i some what keep thinking about the 2012 crap. Lol. Guess the best is to be prepared to die and then when the day comes juz hope for the best. FUYO!

Anyway, this is some sorta reflection through the past year.

Relationships
Manage to hold up my promise of keeping less than three girlfriends to Cheryl. Haven't played in like super long and i think i kinda lost my 'mojo'! Was super serious with my girlfriends this year but some how it didn't work out. Only had 2 this year and sad to say both of them have changed alot. Even when i wanted to try and start playing again, the girls i met were either attached or had some one they already liked. Fucking shingzy la! Then the best is the one that i liked, yes, i LIKED, is migrating. I'm juz glad that i didn't get too close to her before she told me that. Sure, it did hurt a hell lot to hear it, but atleast it was still early. Right now I currently like the oddest person one could ever like. Ever liked someone you respected? We may be friends but she is also my 'superior' sia... damn weird... Her actions are giving me the feeling that she might like me too. I've hinted to her that i like her and her response is always like hinting me back. I'm afraid that if i try, our friendship would be affected. Anyway, juz have to grow my balls bigger cos i'm planning to ask her out before countdown and at exactly 0000hrs on the 1st of jan i wanna try my luck, confess my feelings for her and ask her for her heart :D. Wish it would happen haha. But doubt so lol.

Academics and Education
As you guys know, i retained this year. Next year i have to drop to 4N. So mum is sending me to private to continue and do my O's. Have done loads of soul searching and have told myself every single day to pull up my socks and study hard the coming year. 17 next year liao, won't be 17 again or 17 forever so have to make this year count. May be more havoc la, thats all i can say. Don't even know wad kinda bad habbits i might pick up from private, but at the end of the day, i'll still make sure i study:D.

Anyway, tmrw morning going for dental check-up. Hope the dentist dun say anything bout my teeth haha:D. After that going down to a Mum's friend's saloon to cut hair... thinking of under-cut ley... but maybe juz trim will do la... As long as when long and nice can liao. Oh! And as long as she likes it can liao :D

Dogs are a man's best friend

Met the girls and Donovan for slakingz session today again... Found out that Pedington needs someone to look after her tmrw and I volunteered! So excited bout it! So i guess i'm toning till day break and then i'll pick her up. See if Siying wants Charlotte and Peding to meet up anot. haha!

Anyway, this post goes out to my bestest Ang Moh friend, Jennifer Ann Hamer! Yes my dear, this you are my best Ang Moh friend, and i know after you see this post you are so gonna call me Chi-nah again. Anyway, tks for being there, through all those sleepless night that i've had. And thanks for letting me be the one to be there for you too. We've shared loads of fun going out, watching movies, disturbing each other bout our racial differences and not to mention picking on Venus. You da bomb girl! :D

The time for forgiving

Its Christmas everybody! I know my blogs have been coming in on the wrong day cos i always post it after 12. But school is starting soon and i guess by then my blogging timing would be before 12 and on the same day...

Anyway, Christmas. Its not all about giving gifts and sharing. Its more of the forgiving. One good example is my dad haha. Read the previous few blogs and you will know how i feel about him and the way he treats me. But since yesterday, he changed and i guess i've changed my feelings about him too :D.

So, left Amanda's place early yesterday for midnight service at church. Had to sit through more than an hour. Time went by so fast the minute the service ended. Everyone went out and was wishing each other a merry christmas and had fun chatting with everyone. Headed over to Ben's place for the after-party but didn't tell mom and dad cos they were asleep. Some how, got away with it, and came back by 5 with credits to Sandra for sending me :D.

Woke up at 12 today, slacked and went over to Alex's place for Christmas lunch. Had fun playing Band Hero with them and it was nice to play the drums infront of different people for a change. Played many games including some cashcard monopoly that they bought from Taiwan. Left at 6 30 to take Ye-ye for dinner at his friends new stall. Came back and went to Donovan's place for party. Saw this uber cute girl and wanted to ask for her number. But as usual, too shy la! So in the end dun have. Went down to salck with the usual juz that today Yingying nvr come. Sad lor... So talk bout r/s stuff then now i'm home.

So now juz doing the usual, blogging though kinda lazy, watching OnePiece and juz slackingz... So bloody shingz la. Hopefully it wun be too loud like Boomz if not wake mom and dad up. Tmrw heading over to Ne-ne Ee-ee's place for bbq at night... so, get to swim! Haha. Crap la. Got some group of guys downstairs my hows making so much noise! So damn Shingzing Boomz la!

Where'd you go? I miss you so... Seems like its been forever that you've been gone

Mummy suddenly turned damn nice to me today. Quite suprising. As usual, the Asshole didn't let me out at all today even though had OBS gathering... Talked to mum today and she told me to be home by 5. Damn early, but atleast i got to go out. Today Camp 1 outing rox... Played frisby from the time we reached, which was at around 1 30? Supposed to meet up at 12 but some overslept, some last minute decided to come and some had some school programe earlier. Played pool while waiting.

So... Played frisby, and most people were kinda inexperienced in it. So what else to do? Train them lor. Played then by the time they all decided to cycle, it was already 3 30. Rented blades with Rachel. We went all the way to NSC then headed back. By the time we reached lagoon, it was almost 5. So borrowed 10 from Mercus Lau who heng heng juz nice was working at IC near lagoon and cab back home. Sry to my fellow friends who had to carry my blades all the way back... I owe you guys big time!

Reach home and chillaxed till 8 then was invited over to Alex's place to help them with their rock band. Lol. Played then went down to slack with Evania, YingYing, Donovan. Was having so much fun when Ying started to go emo. Everyone kept quiet after that. Atleast before i left i saw Donovan make her smile again :D.

I don't know if i'm scared of your reaction, the truth or i'm not ready. They are convincing me to get you but i don't know. Today, seeing you sad really broke my heart. And when i thought i heard a sulk from you, my heart just crumbled into pieces. I don't know what i can do to make you go back to the bubbly and jumpy self that you were. You were the one i can always count on to make me smile or laugh no matter how bad my day was. And now seeing you sad, i feel so useless, not knowing what to do. I tried my best to comfort you with an sms but you didn't reply. I can only hope that you will feel better soon and know that i will always be here for you when you need me, juz like you have been there for me.

Born and Raised.

Don't know why, but have been getting alot of requests to update blog so... after almost 20 days, update lor!

Cant help feeling and asking myself, why the fuck i was even born to this family?! It seems the only thing i can treasure from my family is everyone but my parents. To all my frenz out there, i know you all say that im super lucky being an only child. Trust me, it is like hell! Imagine this, in every family, the parents will dish out 100% of hell on their kids. The more siblings you have, the less hell you all get. From what i see amongst my cousins, some of them younger than me are getting even more freedom than me! Screw my fucking life la. I know it sounds stupid, but these are the times i wish i had a girlfriend. Some one i can always count on to brighten my day, some one to hold and to hold me back to comfort me, some one i can talk to late into the night and would let me pour out every single one of my troubles. Life sucks. Almost scolded FUCK infront of Mum juz now. I have always wished i never had a Dad, but with the way he is treating me now juz makes me wish i could kill him with my own hands. He fucking grounded me cos i havent got my pay. Anyway, here is my sincerest apology to you mei, that i cant acompany you to send nigel off, i feel damn shingzy right now la. Mom said that she will try talking to the Shingzer if i can go OBS outing tmrw. He better let, if not he will witness my worst rebellion yet, that mother fucking chi bai.

Anyway, was glad ye-ye called the Shingzer 2 nights back. Was playing mahjong, so wasn't really concentrated on the conversation with him. He mistook it for my chinese being super lousy and he called Shingzer. Shingzer then got an ear full from grandpa haha! Was so nice to hear that it happened. But of cos, the parents always takes it out on their kids. But was too happy that i couldn't be bothered by what he say. Btw shingzer, if you think that i'm a useless son, look back in the mirror and see that you are a useless dad too! You think your strict way of raising me has me on the right track?! Too bad! It's my life and i don't take instructions! It's up to me if i want to cooperate or not. If you want me to, then treat me nicely. I can still remember the younger days when i used to get beaten by you and i can tell you this... Mommy is the only one that has my respect! So Shingz off!

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Tired to the max. Have been sick the past few days. Lack of water has caused the medicine to still remain in my bloodstream instead of being washed off. Feeling drowsy as hell since morning. Cant even watch tv while sitting straight.

I need a girl to look after me :(