Lets get drunk and forget what we did

Results day is forever dissapointing. I got an overall 40% for exams again. Its like ever since Mr Phua came into office our school papers all got so difficult. Dun dare to tell Alex. I hate it when he gloats over me, knn so what if he is better in academics compared to me?! I'm sure im better than him in other this oso wad, just that i dun say or gloat all over it. But more rather i'm afraid to tell mom. What if i retain again? Fuck sia. I dun even know how to face my family. I DUN WANNA GO NS NEXT YEAR! I DUN WANNA BE THE EMBARRASMENT OF THE FAMILY! I'm under a hell load of pressure now. Nothing is like what it seems on the outside. And i really pity Fion Mei too. She might have to retain too. Seeing her cry juz breaks my heart. Drank with her today at Plaza Sing there. She got super drunk within 3 cups. She started biting me and Husky like crazy (ouch!). Got two bite marks now on my shoulder lol...

But always try to look on the brighter side of life. No matter what happens, i juz wanna have my two sisters along side with me all the way. But if somehow one of you can go off for smth better, you will have my well wishes. No matter what happens, meeting you 2 have made me loved retaining. You two were like my jewels the entire year. And now seeing that the year is coming to an end, i cant help but think back at all the good times we had this year and cry, or tear. You two are the sweetest and most lovable sisters ever! :(

MIA-ed (4 Days)

Right... MIA-ed for 4 days... so here's a catch up since tuesday.

20th Oct (Tuesday)
After paper, left school and went to meet Nigel with SiYing mei below my block. After meeting, slacked there for no more than 5 mins then we went over to Mac for breakfast. Saw Natalya there with a few of her friends and ate McGriddles for the 1st time! While i slowly ate, Mei came up with another concoction as usual. Went back to the car, smoked one stick while discussing where to go and left after deciding that Marina would be our KaiKai place. Nigel dropped me back home and after sending Mei and going back to his home to change, he swung by and picked me up. When we reached there, we smoked another stick... at the car park! Its illegal by the way lol. Practically walked around shops the whole day with 1 or 2 pics taken and headed over to suki sushi for dinner. The food wasnt as good as soul garden but it was way cheaper and the evironment with the experience was the bomb! You even get to make your own Ice-Cream!!! Stuffed myself so much that had stiches the entire night. Went out to smoke 1 more stick then realised that i had to shit! Nigel had the same feeling. We rushed to the toilet then to our horror, and i really mean horror, with our shit about to leak out, only got one toilet bowl! The other 1 is squating. So i gave way to Nigel and held my shit like crazy lol. Relieved liao then came home and slept straight away lol. So here are the pics taken that day :D... More info on that day in Siying's blog.

21 Oct (Wednesday)
Smsed Q and met her over at CDC and slacked the whole day there

22 Oct (Thursday)
Slacked at home

23 Oct (Today)
Woke up. Had a proposal for Janice for a Y2Y camp. So all Y2Y members out there reading this blog, if you are interested in helping me, plz contact me on my phone if you have my number or through my blog ^^. Went down to Orchird Forum with Zarif and Q. Jalan Jalan and then went back at 5. Ask for an interview for a job there and got it! Headed down to Bugis and bought the black shoes for work. Guess what! I have to start tmrw! Cool! But its gonna be tiring... Anyway Zarif took my pack, and limited me to 5 sticks a day. But with work starting, i dun even think i have the time for that many... So... thats a good way to quit smoking right? haha

P.S Jie... i know... im cutting down le... i promise by the end of the year i will be smoke-free

Break a leg!

Toilet Break!

Toys R Us... Toys R Them!

Walk walk walk walk and wait. Thats all that we did today. By right should be study study study. And when i said we i mean Kenneth me and Zi Xing. Was supposed to go library today lor. But last minute Redhza cant go. So while Ken and i waited for ZX at old airport, Julien went home. By the time we met up, we were on our own. Plus we all had dress code today la. Then some more go home oso wasted. So we decided to go orchird since Fitri was working there and i was waiting for her to knock off work. Took 16 till Wheelock there, and went into the closest Shopping mall; ION! But sad la, everything there all to expensive lol. So went down to Far East. But when we got there all we did was bought a drink at KFC and zao-ed, super -_-... Went to smoke, then suddenly there was a loud farting sound. Kenneth and i suddenly needed to shit like crazy. I gek sai until goosebumps come out sia! In the end we went to Mount Elisabeth hospital's toilet lol. Came out and went to meet Fion at Plaza Sing. Met Zhi Yin for the 1st time today, and as Fion always said, she really was cute. There were 2 other girls with her oso, both oso cute, but somehow like no kick leh. Played L4D and kept getting shot at by Fion. Team killer! And some how, Fion was the only one that died lol. Went to eat diner with her then sent her up the bus and walked home.

P.S I didnt get Fitri's sms after 1 whole day of waiting for her at Orchird. Extremely depressing and dissapointed as to how a 'bestie' could have played me out till like dat.

Oh. And yesterday was the opening of Mum's gym; Contours Express! CE Huat Ah! If yall ever interested plz go down and check it out, its located at haig road. I myself have worked for my mum at the gym and worked out at the gym before the opening day and i must say, it i damn nice. But its for ladies only, so sorry guys :D

Thanks darling!

Omg! Two days in a row of giving flyers is exhausting. Sneakily went block to block instead of giving out on the streets today. Hopefully dun tio gan by mom. And today i became the no.1 laughing stock when i gave a flyer to this ang moh lady.

Me: Excuse me miss? (pushes flyer to her)

Ang moh: Oh! Thank you darling!

And it was damn loud! Some more got shelter above so it like echoed all over. Kenneth started spreading rumours that i had an OLD ang moh wife! Like wtf?! So after finish juz sat at Haig Rd for like an hour? Productively spending the time slacking lol. Went down to leisure and had dinner there. But bo pian, we had to tah pao out to eat outside cos inside no space. Ken and i sat there eating by the corner and smoke oso. We looked like some homeless begging kids! My face would never fail to go all red when some one looked at us lol. After that met mom and dad for dinner buffet again. Made up for lunch by stuffing my mouth with all kinds of food but damn it was good!

If you guys have the time, plz go down and support this restaurant. They just started not much people know bout the place but the soup is damn nice! Its located beside the katong SPC, opposite TKGS. Thanks!

Presenting... The pics that were taken today!




What a cute couple... lol



























A camwhoring nerdy me? haha... the hair makes it worse!

Excuse me, Miss?

Omg... It is so fucking difficult to be smth you are not! Its just so hard to put myself into the shoes of being your bestie after all we have been through and with all the feelings i have for you!

Anyway, slept late last night so kinda slept in. Siying woke me up after her paper. She came straight to my house to change while i showered. Then suddenly when i came out, 'Mei! Why you wear FBT go give flyer at MRT?!'. Somehow she just gave me a diao kind of face lol. Luckily she had a pair of pants at Nigel's place so he came down to give it to her. After he dropped us of at Mum's gym, went in, had a short briefing and left for the MRT. Giving out flyers is weird, people! Well, actually is ok la, but its just the starting part. Learnt and gained alot of experience from Redhza and Jia Sheng too. Oso had the chance of seeing a few hot girls. Don't worry Fitri, you will always be my no.1 apple of my eye :D. Oh, and Redhza got a girls number too lol, funny story.

Girl: excuse me you got money for bus fair?

Red: (digs out for coins and gave her 1.20)... So... i give you money you not going to give me anything ah?

And bloody hell he got her number just like that lor!!! So funny, yet unfair! Anyway, went back to the gym to slack then went to Kallang in the evening for free labour lor. After was paid 7 per hour but night dun have. Legs aching like hell, Mouth sore like hell from smiling whole day. I wan my BESTIE to be with me here right now and accompany me. Her smile can easily make all the pain go away:(... I still love you no matter what... haha

Anyway tmrw oso must give out, but time made earlier to catch the lunch time crowd, from 11 to 1... Tmrw Redhza and Siying wun be coming and Zi Xing will take over Jia Sheng's place. As for Me, Alex and Kenneth, we die die sure on 1. Alex got nth to do at home, I need the money to save for her, and kenneth need the money for himself lol. Father go Indo then nvr give Ken money lol. So night peeps.

Heartbroken

Fitri msn-ed me suddenly, saying that she was heartbroken. I was already heartbroken when she said that it was over between us today, and when i heard that, i somehow felt her pain to. My heart seemed to just fall apart. The only thing holding it together was the hope that it would be because of me. And there i was waiting for the chance to say smth like 'don't worry, i love you and i'm yours'. It took only a few seconds before the heart totally dropped. She said that a guy she liked asked her bestfriend for stead. Days ago, when there was a moment of silence between us, i asked her if there was another guy. Her answer was a straight forward and bold no. Now that this comes up, I just cant help but recall how i've been used before. I still love her with all my heart. But im getting confused, afraid that i'll get played again. Questions kept poping out of my mind like, 'Will i get played again?', 'Will i ever or do i even stand a chance with her?' and 'Am i even worthy of her even if she gives me the chance?'. I have so much fears. I want her so badly, and no one has made me this happy in a long time. But yet i'm afraid, afraid that i will never get the chance to show her how much she means to me and that i might not be able to keep her happy. I tried to give her advice on her issue. It was 3 times more heartbreaking advicing her, trying to give her good advice as a friend and not take that moment and use it as an advantage. I only want the best for her and want her to be happy !!!:(

Now that i've poured my heart out, time for the daily reviews. Physics is good but FnN sure fail. Anyway, Mom's gym is opening soon!! Cant wait for it to open. And i'm Contours Express' official DJ... Any songs you guys hear from there will be done by me! I'm in charge of uploading the latest pop, RnB and Hip-Hop songs for their excercise haha! Then had dinner with Ashton and his family and Lagoon. Had Gong-Gong, Carrot Cake, some crazily expensive $10 rojak and Wanton Mee which sucked like hell... The soup tasted like hot water lol... Sigh... I juz wish you could see my heart. That my love for you is pure and true. Sianz... Tmrw have to work and give out flyers. Double-edged sword! Have to wake up early! But i have made a resolve to save up atleast $10 everytime i work for Fitri. I have to take her out and pay for her once in a while too ok?!

Anyways... Good luck to all sec 4's sitting for their O's and wishing all those who take their exam good results haha... take care!

Happy Birthday Zaza Izura!!!

Yep... Happy B'day, one year older already. Must be more mature and blah blah blah k? haha

Sigh... Ever felt heartache over spending money? lol. Suay sia. Yesterday spent $20 on cab fare after meeting baby... Heart pain la.... But there was smth she did that just melted my heart and made it all worth it haha. Anyway im think im super dead. Didnt really study yesterday when i was with her. So today the exam scripts were practically blank? Plus FnN coursework has been due for submission long time ago and havent even started it yet. Just hope i dont bump into Ms Ong tmrw!!!

Went over to the gym after cutting hair today. Doesnt look any different, just that it looks much neater now. Atleast not like the mop i used to have on my head :P... Hopefully Baby will like it. But im oso prepared to cut again if she doesnt lol!!... Anyway take care!!!

Ice Breaker

Finally... Baby is talking to me again... It appears that the reason she didnt sms or talk the past few days is cos she was afraid of me asking her for stead... But now that everything is settled, its back to normal. Thanks GOD!!! My prayers were answered after praying damn hard every night :D. Cant wait to see her tmrw and watch her rebond her hair!!! Baby i missed you... Though we may be friends now, i hope that we can be more than that and i'll wait till you are ready. And feel free to call me down to woodlands anytime if you need me kay? Love you baby, and you have my all...

A big shout out to everyone who has been tagging... Thanks for the support yall!!!

Sad Sad Situation

Sigh... I didnt get a single sms from you today... I dont even know if i have the chance to be with you anymore:(... Im just praying and hoping that tmrw will be alright and that you will sms. And we need to meet up! I badly miss you, and i also need my physics book back... My physics paper is coming up soon baby. Please reply me asap

Craps up today. Went all the way down to toa payoh today. Went there to Mr tan's place to study. In the end oso nvr study. Need motivation to study leh!!! Plus was supposed to meet Andy there at like 12? In the end over sleep then he only came at 1... Ton la, ton some more, make me wait like and idiot sia. Chilled there till like 5? Came home and slacked. Wasn't until around 9+ when i went down to the playground and met Alex, Claudia, and Michelle... Claudia's bro was there too, but dunno his name lol. Played with his wave board and i freaking hell improved alot! I can finally move and balance on it... It's only a matter of time before i master it haha... Thats all for today folks. Super tired! Oh and to the anonymous person, im not afraid of girls, you judge people early... Maybe some day people might just judge you and call you a douche bag? That would be perfect for you

Not everything goes as planed

Hey yall... welcome to my 1st blog again since june... Sigh... days past so fast... but it seems to slow down without you... Well, today was ok... SS paper wasnt as hard as i expected... but as usual it was damn rushing and i wrote the answers till my hand almost cramped up lol... Mei and Nigel came over after the paper... 1st time Nigel met my parents lol... damn cool.. haha. Didnt sms me the almost the whole day eh? I'm getting worried... Plz tell me that smth went wrong between us so i know how to make things right. I can't take the silence between us. I really love you and want you bad but as the days pass it seems like you are drifting furthur away from me... I may not be able to give you your materialistic desires if there are any, i may not be able to be there for you always(after all we live on opposite sides of the island), i may not be able to give you full happiness, but i promise that i will do everything in my power and might to make you as happy as i can. Everything i am, and everything i have, have already been surrendered to you... please give me the chance

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